Listening to - Mainan Cinta by Nana n Achik

Yea! Nenek gave me a kiss..yo0hoo..! De last time she came back to S'pore was like..last yr. yes. I miss her so much. Skool's been great fer de past week. 'Cept tat ma class is de onli one who had to go fo Motivational Tok. Like we're not motivated enuff to do well lik tat...insultin as it may sound, i tink de talk wasnt tat bad at all..We'll be havin 4 sessions tis whole month n i'm lo0kin forward to every one of it, coz sumhow the counsellors can make us all feel better abt ourselves, they tink we're an energetic bunch n tats more important.
TAt thursdae was Lilo's burfdae so i gave her tis Roxy p0uch..i spent like 1/2 n hr in Flash n Splash befo decidin on one appropriate gift. Wrapped it in a nice matchin wrapper but in de end de whole thing was smashed, torn n wet cuz befo i gave it to her, i was walkin in de heavy rain wif Sha, Zul, Roni n Bib..hehe gerek sak main hujan..da sec4 but kickin puddles of mud water still seem like real fun!! Aniwae we had tutorials tis morning..da mcm like ani other Freaky Fridae skooldaes but i skipped Bio cuz terovershot..dorang ckap Bo0n nk detent tapi..tak tau ah, dorang seme kuat tipu. Fo Physics, Heng made us write personal letters to him. I tink its touchin cuz he's de onli teacher who bothers to find out more abt our inner selves..i wr0te a long one aready but tak tau nk kasi die ke tak cuz..i dunwan to open up too much, duwan him to tink i'm pathetic n lead a crappy life in a crappy fam.
Yah i saw Rez de otha dae..she's tis gerl ah, dulu de 4 of us, plus Li n Sha were damn close. We were practically sisters n her home was ours too..did n shared evriting together but last yr she changed, due to sum conflicts ah but she overreacted i guess..i'm still figuring out y she had to gif us up. She smiled so i did de same too, but tinkin bac aBT de past, i wished i didn't. Haiyah, sad u noe to reflect on ur past lik tis. Within a couple of years, alot can change, whether u want it to onnot.
Even in class, wen i tink abt last yr, i still dunno if i shud regret or be thankful tat i did de rite thing. I mean he's so much more good-lookin now siak. Like drop-dead n wen i lo0ked at him, silently wishin he will look at me, ma heart will melt den break cuz he didn't..Damn. ur not worthy of him no more ok. cuz wat u guys had are now history n tat also, was ur fuckin choice. I detered tis to happen so i guess i haf to accept tis fact. But its sad u noe.

Cuz i miss dem onli after i'f let dem go...



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