Listening to - nothing. nothing at all.

had medical check-up for tp tis afternoon.raffles med saed i must make an appointment so i went to sata at chai chee instead. nys n hani were such sweets to accompany me..esp nys, she paid for both taxi rides, to n fro. can't help giggling as i watched the plastic cup turned warm as my urine slowly filled it. gee. i've never tried peeing into a cup, so i found tat rather amusing. n i pity tat girl who just can't make herself pee as much. for the x-ray, i had to take off my top n bra n changed into a robe. i almost burst right into the nurse's face. as i was changing, nys actualli took a video of me wit her digi..wit my bra hanging from behind and all..bwahahahah. n hani was next to me, poking her own breasts. wtf. so yah, these are the things we girls alwaes do. n thank god the video screwed up so nys had to delete it. phew.

the girls were complaining. so rite after the check up, we went back to tamp. met bib there. den went to s11 to haf fried chicken! i seriously think, bib, like any other girls in this world, shud go on a diet. atleast drop the chicken wings. soon after, sha joined us. everyone was excited about the laptop she's gonna get for rp. yet nys just had to leave us for m'sia. wat a balance, ey? then the 5 of us went to cs cuz bib wanted to haf her ear pierced. it was as good as trying to kill herself. i don't understand y people take the risk n try to make holes on themselves. like, ewww, ok. o ya, hani bought us durians today. after all tat, the 5 of us went back to nys' place. slacked, took a few mags n went hme. n then i realised i havent ate anything proper since morning so the dinner i had was also my breakfast and my lunch. soon, i believe, i can lose this bulge. it's almost invisible, anyway. see,i told u guys i didn't haf to try so hard!

n sha cameover. she had to fax the laptop thingy to rp or sumting. fed her ice lolly and corn. to be one of us, i guess, u must...MUST get accustomed to having ur house up once boredom strucks.

so yah i've prolly been spending most of my time wit those twits rite now. dun ask me where li is,she's probably too bz
celebrating her ferst few days of her seventeenth year. haiz. n joo, i was the only one who saed 'we dun give a damn.' the rest think otherwise. really. n i dun even mean tat, fuck. i do miss u, chick.

on a heavier note, im afraid i mite turn mental. everyone will, right? there's always tat little lunatic living deep inside all of us. n mine is about to rage, i tell u. just a matter of days. yes. days. and two days IS long enuff. we've tried this once. and tat also, we both gave up half way. but y must this go on for another? y must it even happen in the ferst place, fuck?

ok maybe he needs to be alone. i've been a real drag. perhaps, it is again, my fault tat tis just had to happen. shall face it, although it's hard to not secretly wish it was him, each time my fone rings. he's right. i have to learn to stop hoping.

right. before i start to sound like a typical hapless girl lost in love, i tink i shud just get immuned to tis. having to lead life all by myself just like how fine i haf been before i met him. all i need is to keep myself occupied.

go to work tomorrow, fuck.



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