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Listening to - The Scientist by Coldplay

what does it take for you to feel contented with what you have? issit the things you illusioned it to be, or what's really been revolving around you. stop hallucinating. it's getting pretty obvious. some people dont take recognition for the people who care for them. or even for those, who act like they don't care, but really, end up trying too hard. if only you can initiate instead of waiting for it all to fall back into place. treat this like any stupid sisterhood every schoolgirl desperately find themselves in. or worse, that comfort zone you've finally grown out of. it's more than that, and you know it. and whatever happened to all the i-love-yous? does that only come when things are up and going? or when things are down, saying them will always block me out from the truth. still intimidated? try being honest for once. be honest infront of me like you were, behind me. tell me how i can be a bitch if i want to, and spare the stab in the back. till then, can you blend in just like the rest of us. six is a handful, which is why one chose to drift away.

keep contradicting yourself if that makes you feeling less guilty. it alwaes work even on the other side. coz tonight i was left all alone. all alone and hanging. since three days isnt long enough, let's try a week if this goes on.

nobody said it was easy
no one ever said it would be this hard

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