eh this is so fun you know? first you said i give you problems, i ask too much and i'm driving you crazy. that's like the best thing i just needed to hear from you. instead of working this through and talk it out ( like how you use to do best ), you give it all up, keep it mum and believe that that will make things better. you're not a robot eh, who can push buttons to stop feelings or change them as and when. but sure you can go to sleep and hoping the next day, things will be better. whoaaaaa. you're something. i am sick of trying to talk things through when all you do is brush me aside like a fucking pest getting in your way. texting me once you wake up and a whole lot of nothingness throughout the day. sometimes, i feel that this whole fucking relationship is deteriorating down to it's FUCKING ZERO STANDARD that makes me so disgusted with myself for wanting this to work so much. why am i bothering about this so much? why do i give so much shit to this when i know you're just happily pushing me aside and go out with your friends, not caring about me because you know that no matter what happens or what you do, i'll still be right here waiting for you. i wish we could get back into times when things were so much congested, you busy with school, me, always being there for you because i know we've only got so much time for each other. unlike then, now we have all the time in the world for each other and obviously you're not making full use of it and maybe i should just take this relationship as it is per day and stop expecting anything from you. because time is just time when it loses all its quality. AND WHY THE FUCK AM I SO ANGRY TO PEOPLE WHO DOESNT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME?








pathetic?

memang pathetic nak mampos ni semua.
dah, i want to go bathe and get ready to go JB wit them tonight!! yoohooo!!!!!
yeahness! : D



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