why is fiffy on a diet right now? can she tell me how she put on all the weight in the first place? cuz i cant seem to do it, you know. i just can't. so it's rice week, this week. and i hope i can go on just by eating rice this whole month. and for the whole of next year if things don't change. WAHAHAHHAA. asal aku sound so pathetic ni. hmm. school was alright today. finally returned naq her french notes. hadi came down. fish&chips at itas, so sedap. ( but it's still rice for me. ) apiz was there. and i wish ili would just stop singing 'case of the ex' everytime she sees apiz. first of, nobody cares if apiz was my ex, anymore. everyone got over it eversince sec3. and you should too k, miss asswipe-who-gobbled-down-the-whole-peach-tart-when-i-asked-for-some. and we saw this guy not far from our table. ok he's not cute. infact he's not good-looking at all. other than his yellow topman tshirt and white purcells, nothing about him was hot k. but ili was so crazy over his so-called sharp features and deep set eyes my ass, i almost went up to him to ask for his number for her. fuck you shit you ili you almost made me do stupid things for you suck you cock. and he has fat friends. bwhahahahaha. ok that's totally uncalled for, sorry, my mistake. ( bwaahahahayarighthahahah.)


tonight i finished up my essay wayyy before it's deadline which is this friday. but it's not even thursday yah and i can't believe it myself. well anep said not to procastinate so i didnt. beyond elation. he couldn't have imagined it either, really. i was so happy i wished i could talk to him about it. well there's so many other things i wanna tell him apart from that stupid essay lar. but when i called he already fell asleep. medicine takin its effect, so he says. hmm...ok yah he's sick lah so...i shall just lay it off for awhile. k sudah. i kinda miss him. maybe not all of him but just the way we use to have so many things to talk about on the phone and it's so hard to hang up sometimes. that, i just miss so much. nowadays, i find myself not telling him things i later wish i'd tell. i duno how im suppose to put it, maybe im just busy trying to figure out what he hasnt told me yet to care about what is there to let him know. yet i was so sure this relationship is certain. so certain and true, we can open up with each other and have no secrets between us and all that shit. ah. what made me so sure, anyway. never be too sure, i have learned. there's still things i don't know. yet i thought we knew everything about each other. i so misconstrued. okay heck to lovey-dovey stuffs because they're just out to test me and make life more challenging and leceh than it already is!




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