today is lepak-in-bed day. aysha's bed. hehe. i can't believe i stayed at her place the whole freaking day. when i was suppose to go to work. i have been doing really stupid things lately. like skipping supp papers and now, taking risks of losing jobs. i know someone is angry at me right now. and i have drained out of excuses to cover my ass. yes, i have not the slightest idea of what i'm doing. but i choose to do this. ok? i've gotten this far to know how i'll end up eventually. and i have the feeling that, if i depend too much on others, i will never learn to make it on my own. and if i don't make it on my own, people will tend to think i'm stupid. *takes a deep breath* i just remembered that i am afraid of thunder storms. it hasn't been raining this heavy for so long, i forgot about my secret little phobia. i fear of walking under umbrellas in the storm because i always believe that when lightning strucks, it'll hit the metal tip and the person who is holding the umbrella will get struck as well and die. i hope this is nothing more than just an imagination or the lack of interest in science. can somebody enlighten me on this? somehow, as i grow older, i begin to develop more phobias. like losing weight, cats and banglas.


i hope he forgives me soon. because when he's mad, things are not fun anymore. :(