i am now chatting with the guy who forced me into phonesex within two days of knowing each other. and last night, the cousin of another guy i got to know from a stupid club, came to me and said his cousin is sorry and hope i have forgotten all about the past. the past when he was the finest man i've ever met, the most intelligent and the only one who could coach me in my studies because fuck, he was so damn smart. he gave me free tuition and loan me his old books. and when my parents refused to pay the bills, he even bought me a phone line so we could stay in touch. but one night, he got so angry and demanded all his stuffs back, old books as well. why? because i had refused to go on a movie date with him. wohoho! some gentleman he was. one is a sex maniac and the other is a sore loser. IS still. and the sex maniac who once tried convincing me he could find a girl's g-spot very well wouldn't stop asking me out. especially on godly hours like this. unfortunately he happens to be my neighbour so as near as to where the new 7-11 is at ( or god forbids, his bedroom ), he would be more than glad. i've moved on further away from online dating and passing numbers to guys on a bus. i wish anep is still up right now so he can listen to me rant on and on about all the boys i use to date. frankly, im ashamed of my past. nothing to be proud of at all. because nothing thrills me quite like childhood romance.

today was a day full of ironies,seriously. i could laugh. i got up three hours after my alarm went off and again, i missed going job-hunting. the japanese restaurant called for training this thursday but im still contemplating on it. gatal kan aku, i know. sha was suggesting we go try our luck at raffles hotel but realised we've only got half an hour left before the interview session ends. so to kfc we went cuz the girl's got coupons for my zingers. wee. and the table next to us sat a chinese couple who were arguing infront of their food. how inappropriate eh!! and the girl was constantly shouting at her bf, we were so kepo, we tried figuring out each mandarin word she said. and sha wanted to take away her chicken if she gets more irritating. it was so funny sials. so damn memekak. and sha said she's menyampah looking at secondary school girls. stop being so kakak2 kay. "that's what everyone thought of you back then too." hahahah! babi sia. saw rasul and friend. and rasul is still as short. shorty boy.

i left for anep's place and sha went to play pool wit joo. been so long since i've been there, what's with him working 8-5 now. haziq is so abang2, i am so alarmed. the way he talks and stuff, makes me wanna smack his butt and scream it right into his face, YOU'RE JUST EIGHT, MISTER! it was dinner again because his mama cooked my favourite black sotongsss. hahahaha! black sotongs are yummeh! and anep's a certified fag because he has a shiny boxer that shimmers everytime he moves. yuck. so waited for faggy to get dressed and we left for white sands to look for my red tee. i hate having to wear red on the job because red tshirts are hard to find. it was back to tamp and kfc again. hoho. before anep left for suntec, we met the girls again at lisboa because somehow, there was quite a huge tiff going on among them. sha suddenly just lost it and apparently she had stomped off and left them all behind without a reason. it was such a chore to deal with my bestfriends without having to take sides.

it was already getting late but still, all the girls followed me and came down to meet sha at our neighbourhood. everyone had their say and i'm so damn happy cause for once there were no more bitching since everyone had a chance to say it all upfront. things finally fall back into place and it was no more about joo, honey and bib or me, sha and nys. each one of us has our own brains to think for ourselves, and it doesn't matter who each of us chooses to stand up for. i fully know that everyone cares for one another. but only due to circumstances, we choose to be in denial and seek satisfaction in saying hurtful things we don't mean and fuck one another's butt hard with our painful sarcasms. we just love it yea!! just stop it k girls. if you love us, just say it. you have all the boys to fuck. spare us the trouble of having to argue all the time. it's tiring eh. what's so hard about showing some love anyway?

after all the big commotion, anep came to meet me again before heading home. as usual, i find myself immersing deep into the existence of my friends that i sometimes just totally forget about him, at the same time, i screw it all big time. you hear alot about boyfriends doing stupid things to piss the girl off. but for our case, the girlfriend never fail to be so fuckin dumb and let the boy down each fuckin time. cheers to me, for being the best girlfriend in the whole wide world! i'm sorry anep..

to sum it up, my dad threw a bitch fit when i returned home. HELLO FUCKTARD DADDY, YOU ALWAYS MAKE MY DAY. =)



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