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fi - like a woman scorned.
7th October 1988 - a star
is born. paranoid android. online since 2003, here you'll read about her daily spasms, visual spreads of close loves and a tinge of artworks from time to time. welcome to her humble abode.

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Monday, June 19, 2006

Let's go down, down, low down
Where I know I should not go
Oh and she thinks she's the one
But she's just one in 24
And just 'cause everybody's doin' it
Does that mean that I can, too?

Lady, where has your love gone?
It was the anti-septic to the sore
To hold you by the hand
Must be first, be in demand
How he longs for you to long for him once more
Just once more

but just once more, she couldn't. thing is, if you play with fire, you don't worry about how you're gonna stop it, but you worry instead about how it'll hurt you for playing with it in the first place. some time ago, i heard from some friends about a girl who cheated on her boyfriend. of course she doesn't want this to happen but no one can run away from fatal attractions either. and what made it worse, she was so devoted to her boyfriend. no major problems and her relationship wasn't rocky whatsoever. but yet, she just had to go on cheating somehow. firstly, it started with the freedom of socialising. the relationship was so open, her boyfriend hasn't any qualm in letting her make friends with whoever and from wherever she wants to. now that's the down side. cause sometimes you think you're friendly, when really, you're too friendly for your own good. what seemed like a little online crush grew into something deeper after which, everything else started coming down. not only the pride and trust her boyfriend gave, even her pants as well.

now how was that possible? why would she want to hurt her boyfriend like that? she might as well put a gun to his head and watch him die. but that wasn't her. with the new guy, she feels like a total different person. it was a mistake, yes. but certainly not a regret. two months of infidelity. yet the boyfriend smells nothing of it. if you ask me, i'd say two months is a very long time for a guy to stick around a girl who he fully knows, is very much attached. it should have meant more to them i suppose. eventhough i seriously think the new guy is beyond stupidity for putting himself at the losing end all along. two months. and it ended. she felt it wasn't worth it. she got tired with all the excitement of cheating. and the fear was getting too overwhelming by the day. with the girl happily devoted again to her boyfriend, silently relieved he never found out. and the new guy..i mean who gives a shit about the new guy anyway?

but why, i must know, would a person cheat in the first place? if it's something that must be lacking in a long-term relationship, it should be the thrill i reckon. the thrill of seeing someone new. the thrill of being caressed by an unfamiliar touch. the thrill of getting laid with someone different for a night. fatal attractions are vicious. it eats you up more than you ever know. and most of the people i know who cheats on their partners, are very much in love and happy with their current relationships. see it can happen to anyone. i'm not saying it's inevitable but a person's faith can only be so strong. a relationship needs to stay fresh. i suggest, don't get too contented with what you've already got. it doesn't just stay that way all the time. make your partner fall in love with you every single day. if you simply can't, TRYY!

i don't know why infidelity's been bugging me tonight. perhaps...

yup, just perhaps.

and it's hard not to stay awake at this hour nowadays. usually, i find myself sleeping almost after six in the morning. it's as if the 24-hour cycle has taken a turn on me, a huge 180 degrees flip on my part. as anep likes to put it, kau lah yang slalu tdo siang, orang je yang tdo lambat. ironic isn't it. don't give a shit about them eyebags anymore, i've more important things on my mind. 6.40 am. GOODMORNING!!!!!!!!




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