it's getting pretty obvious i have so much time in my hands right now. no school, no job, no money. gosh i'm starting to miss school. never would i have imagined myself missing school?! cause you see, in my family, none of us has a record of stopping school halfway. not even staybacks or drop-outs or suspensions (ok maybe a day or two during secondary sch is fine but not the whole term kinda suspension). my parents are those one-kind type. a bloody stereotyping pair. no school = no shame/bad person/no future. and it hurts even more, that i have to go through countless situations involving the parents' friends. like the other day we were in the car and a friend of my mum's had tagged along for our trip to batam. and it was on a tuesday, unfortunately.

kepo auntie: aik fiza, how come you no school today can follow to batam?
me: ermm.. *looks at dad, hoping he'll rescue me*
dad: *glares at me through rear view mirror*
me: erm..uh ya oh cause today no class! erm..project week so no need to go school.

main entam je answer. i hate it sia. i hate it. i hate having to lie and cover up to these people. aku hanyalah mangsa keadaan.

i havent been getting enough sleep either. been spending most of my nights fixing this skin up or simply, galavanting away outside. went job-hunting with fee d on friday only to find none would want to employ me right after i told them my op's next week followed by two weeks medical leave. shucks. had dinner (and first meal for the day) at some indian stall in serangoon. haha i didnt know that he has a strong liking for indian crusine. i ate roti naan, black pepper curry, keema, tandoori chicken..yum yum! and standard, bangla seme tgk pompan mcm tk penah nampak pompan. walked around tekka, bought some candies for the boy cause i have tuition that night also. fee says it works for his primary one nephew so i thought that could help the boy pick things up quickly cause little kids get distracted real fast. and yup it did worked! he was so enticed by the colourful jellies he became an expert at subtraction at the end of the day. and the next session he requested for chocolates. ceh sardin je eh ni anak mintak2.

then fee wanted to top up on petrol for his bike so we went to jb right after my tuition. naik moto for so long, kaki aku pon cramp. changed currency blablabla, wanted to get the dealova indo movie but they didnt have it. booO~ stopped by to eat again and this time we ordered maggi goreng. wahahhaha. you see in singapore you cant get fried maggi ok. i know can fry yourself but the jb fried maggi is like different la..so sedap nak mampos like that. hmm. after topping up petrol, bought ciggies for people cause neither of us smokes. he did light up one stick tho, tanak rugi ah kira. but that also, he puffed about a quarter and threw the rest away. hahhaha! had so much fun hanging out with him excluding the pussy-watching part cause it's irritating ah ok. every girl who walks pass he wants to comment. any singles out there interested in male, 21, loving and passionate? cause fee kesian, he always get involved in girls who are already attached. sedih eh? wahahhaha!









one proof my eyes are failing me, the doctor said i have to go for eye treatment next week also. cause yesterday i was so sick and my eyes were so red, he found mucus and what nots oozing out of my eyeballs. EEE SO DISGUSTING KAN. i need to catch up on some sleep! before meeting my sayang later in the afternoon! heheh. i've only got four hours okay, got to go. bye!



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