[suede//thebeautifulones]

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i felt better after talking to joo tonight, hahahah and she's right, klaka gila siak i don't know why i even bothered tau. i don't know how joo does it but since this is my turn now, i'll prolly have to learn to not let it have any effect on me anymore. not a single bit, nope. all those sticking through thick and thin, all the 'i'll stand by you no matter what they say', all the brushing off every time the mood wasn't on your side, all of your anger i've made myself so numb to, all of that..didn't seem to worth that much to you as it did to me. friends aren't things to make use of you know. one day you'll realise that we all do have feelings too and the world does not only revolve around you and your gazillions of emotional breakdowns. and i thought, out of the lot, you were my best. it's okay tho, i give up on you and i'm done sticking around. everything's been said and done. alright, you win. cause i'm tired. ok? dah aku nak tido.