wrong image settings!!! i should have used the digicam intead. (i was trying to get that sloggi ad effect but the colours turned out extra sharp so i deleted the other one away. sigh.)

raya this year has been a little mundane, too routinised i might add. people come, you salam, pour drinks, talk and pretend you know which side of relative they are and salam again. a'ah something's missing i know. but as you get older, your duit collection alarmingly decreases too. abit disappointing eh at this age, i still have not learnt the true meaning of aidiltfitri and the very essence it brings..apart from the cash. i wish i was abit shorter. hahaha ok kidding! well it's still the first week. i hope things change subsequently as people stop coming already and let me be the one who goes out to visit. (i live with my grandparents.) sad thing is, i wish it could have turned out different for my dad's side. i don't know if this is just coincidence or plain genetic but most of my friends too are abit more tensed when it comes to their paternal side. to severe ties is a little exaggerating but it's been three years. i didn't even get to see my cousin's engagement. that very cousin whom i've had so many sleepovers with when we're little. funny how people abandon their mothers like leaving cats astray. i've come to one conclusion; i think daughters are more responsible children. whahahaa! one thing i've realised is, it's a must to have pineapple tarts! the first kuih you look for once you sit and every makcik will boast how much they've made this year. mcm takde kuih lain. every house has it, i bet. except for anep's la cause when i came over this morning, i didnt' find any.

i was being the perpetual latecomer that he hates when i reached his place at ten thirty instead of eight. so the usual way i would make-up is to call for macs breakfast for him and haziq. hehe. i had hoped for a movie marathon but was a little hesitant cause he and i had a huge fight over borrowing things last two weeks siak, we're so immature like that!! so we ended up watching young&dangerous before i dozed off for the entire lazy afternoon. i know he hates it when i come over to sleep but i really couldn't help it judging from the so many late nights eversince raya. anep has this painful way of waking you up...so irritating siak this boy. he would jump on you and campak2 bantal. badan ringan takpe tau eh bongok. gave in and woke up just to watch him on his psp while i did codings for dian's blogskin. then later in the day we left to do alterations for my kebaya..you can't be losing weight eh fi..*gasp!*

i know i haven't been exactly the most desirable gf in the world lately and i know i'm such a pig and drool when i sleep. and i know that it wouldn't turn out that neat whenever i iron your shirts. and i know i like leaving my things lying around and i know that sometimes i'm really ngada2 about merepek things. and i know i havent been saying this for quite awhile but i really miss the boy alot. sometimes i don't say but that doesn't mean i don't feel. i love you. (:



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