this is crazy.
i ate vegetables on saturday and sunday.
and today.
yes vegetables.
those disgusting green leafy ones that taste like medicine.

but i ate them in large servings today. the maid cooks great salty vegetables! plus you won't believe what i did on sunday afternoon. I JOGGED. around the school and college near my place.
with my sister waiting at the playground making sure i don't stop to walk. then i made her climb the stairs with me. instead of taking the elevator. haha! all the way up to the eleventh floor! i should so make this a weekly habit. god i feel so healthy already. i would've asked joo to join me if she still lives behind. i heard she's on a strict weight-loss regime too! and on my way up i thought maybe this is a good way to shed the pounds off my barrel. i am not fat but it's weird lugging around the mass on my tummy. it's hard to get the perfect jeans. or sit without a bulge. i'm adding trips to the stadium on my weekly to-do list. who's with me?

nasal-spray attack at the clinic this morning. the doctor tried to rob the daylights out of me but i'm no fool. i think my nose is perfectly fine. it is. it must be. i got a sample of the tee and i cannot wait to get the fabric out out my wardrobe and finally do something to it. it's been laying in there all week. i missed fee d the whole damn month. we talked over a plate of noodles and he told me i need to have back-up plans. life is not all about back-up plans, is it. i hate putting my life up on a plan. it use to work back then but i never want to end up like him. so hopelessly sad like that. nobody wants to fall hopelessly sad. i miss getting on the bike as well. there's something about the bike and the way banglas turn to look at me under my black visors. they always look and think i'm not looking. banglas are scary people.

the point of me blogging tonight isn't to talk about my new discovery on delicious vegetables or healthy lifestyles or staring banglas. i am here to talk about something else but obviously it's hard to concentrate when you're in ultimate despair.

bye people, i shall leave you with rachael yamagata to finish the job.

I used to think that anything I'd do
wouldn't matter at all anyway
But now I find that when it comes to you
I'm the winner of cards I can't play

Wait for me
wait for me
Darling
I need you desperately
desperately here

The rain is like an orchestra to me
Little gifts from above meant to say
Girl, you're falling at his feet
Isn't lovely or stunning today

Lay with me
lay with me
I'm alive when you're here with me
here with me
stay

Why do the street lamps die
When you're passing by
Like a hand that won't stay on my shoulder tonight?
If you held me close, would you laugh it away?
Would you dare the glance that I steal to stay?

And I'll find a way
to see you again
Yes I'll find a way
to see you again.



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