time heals all wounds. is that really true? it's amazing how people can get over one another so fast. congratulations! you're no more a basketcase... but i feel like shit why. why do i feel like shit every time i bump into this puny little fact. what use to feel like relief is now despair and regret and no i am not suppose to feel regret. remorse perhaps? utterly bitterly. such disappointment. today marks the day i decided to screw up my future. i am now officially out of school and if you wanna start nagging by asking me why, save it. save it. save it. save it!

today was also wonderful. i mean yesterday. yesterday was surprisingly superfluous in it's own way. haha! i almost nailed the interview at flash and splash. i was sure craig liked me. i mean he was so confident and easily-convinced/fooled but the next minute he called back to say there was a slight 'miscommunication'. of course, i accepted the slight miscommunication with my usual chirpy i am so happy with you voice and he hung up with "so we need a boy now". and that was it. the rest of classifieds were more less bullshit and gap isn't hiring at the moment. so much for the 9.50 per hr, syim. i mean i really wanna go to phiphi end of this year. the both of us do. he was crushed. and cranky. so i bought him donuts. a box of half-dozen honey glazed sugary strawberry jam almond nuts chocolate fillings. you name it. we ate and ate and ate like we're suppose to go there to eat in the first place. well just because he bought breakfast, i felt like being really nice.

and right after we tried the chocolate factory, he just decided we should go catch a movie. how random! we were suppose to go job-hunting for goodness sakes. but disturbia is awesome. romance outweighs the suspense. but still a good, well maybe, very satisfactory suspense/thriller movie. sorry i still cannot get over him in even stevens! he's so selenger. and now he's getting all these hot babes.. transformers and such. not very practical, i think. and off to meet his friends after that. they give me the cramps. and the most random plan of all random plans. they decided to go drinking on the bridge. and of course he started fighting with the girlfriend on the phone. trust me, it's annoying. really really annoying. and what makes it even more annoying is that, i will never ever ever make you feel like it's any more annoying than it already is for you. haha. you don't feel me do you?

so back to the most random plan of all, we got a bottle of glens and waited for era to finish work at paragon. started playing stupid games he taught all of us from camp. and i fucking shouted PEPSI COLA NUMBER 1 out loud. when it should be PEPSI COLA 1 2 3. it was hilarious. after era left, the boys wanted to play truth or dare and he made them do stuff they never wish to do. and to think they dared me to smell his armpits for one minute? like oh my god i'm sooo scared to do it? i was like, really? is that all? okay! after all i love smelling his armpits all the time. so after boozing we took the last bus to bedok and began walking to tampines. there wasn't any more buses left that goes to tampines straight at that time. it's really tiring. the one-hour walk is not funny. my legs were about to give way when we finally reached macs at tampines interchange. but it was fun. and bearable.

i think you're sick. and very raunchy. but still i like you alot. although it's annoying to like you so much. still, i like you so much. you're oblivious. ignorant. superfluous. you're clingy. and naive. and whiny, god you're always whining! you have zero conscience. you're not heavy. you're brilliant. you have a nice voice. your armipits don't stink. you always have things to say. you read me like a book. you don't shower sometimes. you shit after each time you eat. you love cargo pants. you think you're liam. you are everything i never really got the chance to dream of. you're just you. thank you for the... so-called job-hunting day.



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