do you feel like a chain store? practically floored... if there's one thing i hate about people, it would be how they procrastinate and love putting me on hold. i can stand liars but not people who can't face the truth. i've been eating less of late. sometimes i could get by with only one meal per day and not feel hungry at all. good start i should say.. this barrel has got to go. i came home really late this morning and it left me with a splitting headache when i woke up in the afternoon. afiq and i had a talk. the 'getting to know each other talk', as he calls it. but sometimes, i don't quite understand what rubbish he's saying. or what he's really trying to tell me. i love mind games but this one, truly fucks the trueness out of me. plus the weather that was practically putting me to sleep, it feels nicer to just stare at his face the whole time. oh i just love cold mornings like that.

let's just see life as a set of phases and the only reason why people move on so much is because life's just too short to be so hopeful all the time. but i'm not about to lie to myself and pretend i don't hope for things to happen or that i don't predict what's coming my way. as opposed to him, i am not afraid of disappointment. or maybe we're just different that way. he's a dreamer and i'm a realist. i fink.

conversations with him is starting to sound like a psychobabble.

the weather today made it almost impossible to get out of bed and i spent the whole day secretly listening to the conversations outside. at first i thought it was my brother's friends, that would have been really scary because i haven't showered at the time. then i realised it was jaja's friends again, a whole lot of them, still. running and laughing around like busy bees. my favourite kuih is in a safe place right now.

oh yes i finally got down to upload the raya pictures from last friday.







































lowlight of the night: being forced by akmal to watch a chinese exercise video at one in the morning. my mom keeps talking about hadi and apiz is in love with my sister. nobody broke any glasses or made a nenek angry, luckily. joo tore her kebaya sleeve like five seconds before embarking on this whole raya journey. so serabai siak this girl. and hani just passed me her thumbdrive containing pictures we took during puasa, argh she's always so late in passing things! and i was so excited to blog about that night at geylang because we took a shot of a girl wearing a bikini on the outside, and i'm not kidding. right smack in the middle of cold storage. wtf. looking at these pictures makes me want to go back to secondary school again.



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