Distance makes the heart grow weak
So that the mouth can barely speak
Except to those who hide their needs
And I have read the golden seal
That tell of how the seedlings feel
Reminds my heart what love can yield

piste6, you're so nice to me. so mellow sometimes, i put you on repeat mode just to amuse myself. cause i'm not truly feeling in the dumps just yet, infact, i'm very happy. yes i am so fucking happy, i get cramps around my jaw area from smiling too much. lonely lonely heart, i'm missing you too. i wish i could be there, but lazy bones right here decides to be a bitch tonight. argh. i hate to be lazy. but i just am.

the laptop will be ready for collection tomorrow so that's one less thing to worry about. not that i worry a lot but really there's so many things bitting on my arse these days. bills to pay, media reports i haven't looked into yet. and heaps of other necessary stuff i've been happily procrastinating. i wanted to go out with afiq today. yeah just go out and do nothing. because nothing is what we do best. like yesterday we got up really late, walked in the drizzling rain, with no specific plans, just walking. aimlessly, with his hands tight in mine, and it has always been like that these days. we sit down a lot, just waiting for people to call.

dinner with his friends. then afterwards we start to get really oblivious. haha! try putting a song on play-back and watch him serenade you with it on guitar with the loveliest smile you have ever seen. probably the loveliest smile i will ever see. we sat down again. and i watched him sing. suddenly the night got younger. still there wasn't anything else i much rather do. i took four chocolate bars and stood there watching my last fifty-dollar note break into smaller change. i obviously had forgotten there were not any buses left at that hour. the boys came back to practice again and samir was vair vair good.

afiq you are so nice that everytime we kiss, it feels alot like making love to richard ashcroft. LOL. or the closest feeling to it. i want to watch my boyfriend on the guitar again. wow it feels good to call you my boyfriend for a change. i think i've said the word boyfriend for like a million times i feel happier each time i say it.

"so, just you and your friend?"

NO, BOYFRIEND.



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