exams are coming. that means more time. i don't usually use my study breaks to study. instead, i use them to catch up with people. people i don't meet anymore. people i don't read about anymore. people i used to call my bestfriends but never try to find out what's going on in their lives. pard and i talked over milk tea this evening. this one girl, has the tendency to make feel better about everything. she makes me feel safe. it's always the same people, swarming around the same people. it's kinda tiring but i shall not falter.



hani can't lie very well, can she? bib's birthday is coming and everyone is excited (and broke). so usually, the six of us will gather here to just talk non-stop. sometimes we don't plan to meet cause cb, which goes without saying, is just where you go to after school or work. but nope, we don't get that anymore.

my mondays are awfully short now. my mom makes me go to the mosque with her so as to keep myself "in equilibrium". or so she says it could. it's the only day i can perform my prayers without being told and surprisingly, i feel so much at ease after following her for the past few weeks. i don't even doze off anymore! but i can't stand makciks who laugh their asses off whenever the ustad cracks a joke. makcik oblivious pe ni.

and guess what i found on fee d's bed last night...












i knew he was seeking help somewhere, somehow.



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